9/5/2016, Original Post Date
“You will only ever have two choices: love or fear. Choose love and don’t ever let fear turn you against your playful heart”Jim Carrey
Wonder is the embodiment of love.
One time I was running in a neighborhood. In the moment, I was alone, but I didn’t feel lonely. The sky was swirling with baby blues and blood oranges. The clouds looked like pedestals, illuminating the colors. It was comforting and invigorating.
Just to lay in the folds of the sky, to continue running until my feet no longer touched the ground, would move me to a place where I would never feel lonely. It was a moment I wanted to live in, for all of eternity.
The wonder I felt that day sometimes dissipates when practicality shifts my mind away from joy. Instead of noticing the colors of the canvas I see varying shades of grey clouding all that I am. It is uncomfortably plain. That is when I feel captive to the smallness of the world. The experience I have created is not the one that feeds my soul with love. It is the one that leaves me listless.
He told us to be pure and childlike. He wants us to be amazed at the small gifts he leaves throughout the day, the ones that seem insignificant but hold more love than the heart of grey could ever hold. It is simple, really.
I always want to stop and smell the roses because that is what is practical. Schedules and obligation should not be the road map of life. The simplicity of seeking those moments that make life rich with blood orange and baby blue skies is what is most real. Wondering is a verb, an action, and it is the only way we can experience the depths of God’s love.
And that’s what we were created to do, the sole purpose of our lives: to love and be loved.
So never lose your wonder.
7/12/2019, New Thoughts
“May we never lose our wonder“Wonder” by Bethel Music
Wide eyed and mystified
May we be just like a child
Staring at the beauty of our King “
Often I read what I have written in the past and wonder, when did I let this spirited idea slip away?
Since writing this snippet I’ve traveled to many far away places and have had many adventures in forests, on mountains, and in conference centers. But the wonder I have is not a summation of the experiences I’ve had. It’s a choice, everyday, to live abundantly in the mundane and to take the sour situations in life and turn them into lemon pie.
It is still so easy to slip away from wonder and to wander in the wrong directions, not just in the directions and decisions we choose to walkout in thw world, but also in the pathways we pave with our thinking in our brain. Thinking out of a wonderful place does more good to the bones and soul than going to the wonderful places. Without holding onto the sweetness of life’s amazments inside ourselves first, all other “wonders” become dull and vain-filled.
Let me be the first voice to say I am guilty of slipping between what is practical and what is wonderful, what is right and what is wrong, what is risky and what is safe. I don’t know the right way, but I do know wonder is still inside me and is still all over this tiny planet. So on this sunshiney summer day I am choosing to wonder in all circumstances, no matter how sour or sweet they may be.